Walking In the Truth

This has been one of those times in my life when knowing the truth and walking in the truth are not synonymous. I know that I'm to worry about nothing and pray about everything (Philippians 4:6-7), so why does it seem so much easier to worry about it? As though I could fix it anyway! I know that I'm to bear with others, to forgive as Christ forgave me, to clothe myself with compassion, kindness, humility, and patience (Colossians 3:12-17), so why do I keep ending up at odds with another of God's chosen beloved? As if I'm always so loveable! I know that God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly beyond all that I ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20-21), so why am I so surprised when things work out way better than I planned or expected? As if He needed my help! I know that God will supply all my needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19), so why do I keep going to him over and over again with a laundry list of things I think I need as though He might forget or be hardpressed to provide? I know that my struggle is not against flesh and blood but against the rulers, powers, and principalities of this dark world (Ephesians 6:10-19), so why do I keep treating others and enemies? I know that through God we will do valiantly, it is He who will trample our enemies (Psalm 108:13, Exodus 14:14), I need only be still, so why do I spend so much effort and energy trying to fight for myself? As if I'd actually accomplish anything!

I've been thinking about that guy in James that looks in the mirror, sees what's wrong, then walks away without making corrections and wondering just how often I do the same thing. What good is it to know the truth if I don't live in it, let it change my life? I'm such a work in progress, so thankful that God is patient as he continues to shape me.