You Don't Grow Weary

Today, I am in awe of how God continues to make the most familiar things new.

Last night, I was in the middle of a worship service, singing a very familiar song about strength arising when we wait upon the Lord, when I was suddenly completely taken with the line that says, "You do not faint; you won't grow weary."

You know what kills a relationship faster than anything for me?  Weariness.  I am not a patient or long-suffering person, and I am easily wearied by others needing something from me.  (What's particularly crazy about that is how much I like to feel needed in the beginning - something to analyze at another time!)  This is not something I am proud of or pleased with, but it is true. And, because it's true of me, I am very guilty of assuming it is true for everyone else, including God.

You see, I'm a great projector.  I am quick to magnify and project whatever I'm thinking or feeling, particularly about myself, onto those around me.  So, when I'm weary of others, -- or worse yet, when I'm weary of myself -- it is so easy for me to assume that everyone else, especially God who sees and knows ALL is weary of me and my junk, too.

And, logically, when I've determined that someone is weary of me, I seek to remedy that by pulling away from them, making myself scarce for a time, giving them the space they haven't asked for.  :-/

So, having been frustrated with my own shortcomings lately, I've been giving God some space from me, offering Him a break from my incessant neediness of Him. No, He didn't ask for that space, but I figured I'd give it to Him anyway.

Then, last night, I sang those words in an auditorium full of worshiping women.  "You do not faint/ You won't grow weary."  Sheesh!  It was as if I was hearing it for the very first time.  Clear as day, something deep in my spirit spoke up, affirming that lyric:

Do you not know?
       Have you not heard?
       The LORD is the everlasting God,
       the Creator of the ends of the earth.
       He will not grow tired or weary, 
       and his understanding no one can fathom.

Isaiah 40:28

I sunk down in my seat, grabbed a pen, and jotted down the following thoughts:

You do not grow weary.

 - not weary of me.

 - not weary of my needs.

 - not weary of my failure.

 - not weary of my exhaustion

 - not weary of my cries, my prayers, my petitions.

 - not weary of my burdens

 - not weary of my questions.

You. do. not. grow. weary.